temper rise up easily recently...
don't ask why,
some decisions are made wisely without any reasons...
everyday i woke up,
open up my eyes,
mind start to work,
i'm thinking,
i'm working,
and the best part is i know...
...i'm living.
But for sure,
one thing i regret of doing is knowing i shouldn't lend a hand to one person...
empty hopes are proven as time goes by itself...
things started off nearly two years ago...
it all began with a simple friendship and hope begun to brought itself higher...
expectations and disaffection arose since then..until now...
I have a thought...for a moment...
disgrace...was given quietly...
leaving traces of disappointment...
but not permanent...
and I remembered once there's a period of atonement...
But for now,
what do i have to feel?
it is the numbness of all sorts of element that build me up now...
I'm not a good person, i must admit...
but if people spoke of i'm a bad person, i must deny as this is not a fact...
it's just different people gone through life with different experience that makes them have different point of view,
this is not something people don't know...
different philosophies are passed down to us, and will go on in the coming future...
it's just that different philosophies came out from different point of view...
combine some of them might actually creates contradictions...
So?
So, it depends on which situation your in, then apply it...
sometimes i do think of something – Taming yourself...
sounds like...err...
well, taming yourself, meaning you just have to chill, calm yourself down to think...
some one was born that way, living a better life than others...
but what for to jealous about...
i seldom jealous people with better lives than i do...
i just envy them...
but for certain people i met in life...
i do find that,
their jealousy could possibly cost you something...
even though you are at an innocent side...
may be they just feel great to see people suffers...
hell know...
I'm confused,
you treat one person nicely,
at the end,
you just get shit from them...
true what,
if you have doubts, go ahead and experience it...
Well, people live in a designated life...
meaning, some of the things in life you don't stand a chance to pick an option nor having alternatives out of it...
for example, you can't choose what name you want, who's your parents, rich or poor family...
these are the stuffs you HAVE to admit in life...that you ARE born that way...
well, this is a fact...
Life can be fun,
can be tough,
can be adventurous,
sad, happy, etc...
living with fear is what i want to stress about...
Living with fear embedded in your life...
fear of anything...
you can't sleep well,
even though you can,
you get nightmares...
In certain period of life,
human beings experience something different, something they never came across...
some even not under their expectations...
but what i know is...
no matter how tough life is,
you still have to come across with unwanted things, just chill with it...
To be frank,
i have certain heavy illness...
i don't know what it is yet...
i'm not telling anyone here, nor seeking attention or sympathy...
i just want to make an example,
life is short, damn short...
you won't know what you get the next day,
even though you are expecting something...
but i still believe in "law of attraction"...
so, cherish the moment when you woke up you are still a healthy person...
don't give people hard time...
spare mercy, don't rise up your anger or jealousy towards people...
it's not worth...
think of one thing, everyday...
if you left 24 hours to live...
what are the things you want to do...
who are the persons you want to be with...
how are you going to spend the time, wisely...
when is the right time to the things you have longed for...
where you want to go...
it is important...
now people are talking about "Go Green"
because they found earth is seriously damaged...
what if human beings also found out that life is affected by unwanted elements...
serious consciousness of matter in life...
does human being have "Go Green" campaign?
i'm 21 years old, old enough for me to think more than my pass few years of lives...
everyday, it counts...
as i am typing, i am thinking...
once there's one saying...
"people will only remember the one bad thing you did rather than 1,000 good deeds you made"
it is a fact though...
why? psychology stuffs, i guess...
bad things are like a mark in one person's life, it can't be washed off nor clean from others' memory...
it's odd, but you have admit this...
be cautious of what you do, think before act...
this is what i have been taught since i'm a kid...
further more, i'm 21...
every steps i take in life,
every words spoken...
means a lot in my life, it could be a promise,
the promise could be fragile or strong enough for one to accomplish it when the time comes...
concessions in life, it is a simple yet tough mission for us to keep...
Lastly, i just want to let you guys know,
this is just my personal expression post...
don't mind what i said,
may be some of the sentences are criticizing something,
but it's all about my life,
don't mind me...
Anyway, thanks for reading...
Comments are highly appreciated...
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